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Venti ([personal profile] venti_late) wrote in [community profile] kaisou2023-05-27 11:29 pm

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WHO: Venti and all of y'all!
WHERE: Network
WHEN: Near the end of May
WHAT: There's a new grandpa in town, and he's marginally more well-adjusted than Zhongli! Marginally. This one at least knows how to manage his finances.
WARNINGS: This will be a little cursed most likely, and probably language!

So this is a weird, new app! Since I can't delete this thing, I'm gonna guess that it's not some weird community thing for Kaisou, right? Like a FB group for people to get strongarmed into--I mean join?

Guess it wouldn't hurt too much to intro myself since I'm new here. I'm Venti! I just moved here like. Today. Lovely place, the Spirit Vein up above really sets the mood!

Okay, so here's an icebreaker for you guys, just to have a little bit of fun!

Is cereal a soup? Alternatively, how do you say the word 'pecan?'

And a friendly reminder that bananas are berries, but strawberries aren't berries!
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-29 07:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Carmen. Geraldine Farrar's penultimate performance before retirement, April of '22. I had wanted to talk to the pit orchestra in the off chance you were there, but I had a prior engagement... [He sighs.] It sounds as if we really did just miss each other. How unfortunate.

[Zhongli has the look of a man with regrets. Not that he regrets telling Venti the truth, but more that... he has shouldered much of this alone, and he knows he's going to get screamed at for it, and he knows it's deserved, and that he should have told the truth earlier. And yet he still won't complain. He knows the question that Venti is going to ask before he even opens his mouth. That doesn't make the topic hurt any less.

He waits patiently, ever the silent witness, as Venti closes his eyes and remembers. When the bard comes back to the present, Zhongli's expression is... unreadable. Thinking too much? Oh, definitely. But for someone who's known him this long, the resignation is just as obvious.

He takes an eternity to answer, which is as damning as anything.]


... It came in bits and pieces. After we first met, I had a dream that was more like a memory. You visited me while I was working in a huge rush of wind, so urgent that I thought something terrible must have happened. But instead of asking for my help with some martial problem you simply invited me for a drink.

From then on I remembered more and more about you and our relationship, but I kept my peace. The wind has no reason to listen to the mountain, after all.

You ask how long I've known. Do you mean your truth, or mine? I knew who I was the moment my powers came to me. It was a true awakening in that sense. I felt the earth move as if it were a part of me, and I realized I couldn't live as a human anymore. I never really was.

[His gloved fingers settle on the base of the wineglass, but he doesn't bother trying to drink anything yet. It's more to just keep him from staring at his hands in his lap.]

You were unburdened by the memories of a long and bitter war. If you felt powerlessness, it was only in the context of someone who knows their own limits... not a fallen god who no longer had the strength. What right did I have to take that away from you?

[He closes his eyes.]

Perhaps one day you would call my name as you once had. Perhaps you would not. It wasn't my place to force you. As a witness to the history of Teyvat and this earth, I am resolved to carry these memories until the end of time. That is the duty of those who remember.
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-29 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[Venti's anger burns hot, but Zhongli in contrast only grows cold and dark. The spirit of rebellion doesn't live in him. He's a creature of comforts and contracts, finding solace in the predictable. And this is something that he's done for a long time... so long that he can't imagine doing anything else.

Of course Venti doesn't understand that. How could he? Human or not, at his core he's a creature of the wind. Mercurial moods, changing direction at a whim, light and forever free. Venti was born from the sky, and Zhongli has always been loathe to let his feet leave the earth. He sees those tears threatening, though, and he feels something in his stomach twist. Perhaps Venti can't understand, but he's always had a gift for empathy. If Zhongli is beyond the point of feeling, then Venti will suffer it all for him. That's just the kind of person he is.

The kind of person he's always been...

There was a time in another world where they found themselves on the same battlefield. As alike as fire and water, they could have found themselves bitter enemies. But they... weren't. The wind spirit always made an effort. And he makes an effort now, with a gesture that Zhongli doesn't expect at all.

He freezes up at the hug. He's braced himself for a punch maybe, or a slap, or wine thrown in his face (unlikely given the company), but... a hug? A hug? Still, he doesn't push Venti away. He just... lets him cling, and after a moment he carefully wraps his arms around the bard as if he's afraid that Venti might break.]


What I... want to do...?

[Yeah that's a no.]

... It doesn't matter what I want. I must see my contract through.

[softly] I am sorry. For... all of this. Meeting an old friend should be a happy occasion, yet all I've managed to do is confuse and upset you.

[Venti deserves better.]
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-29 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[... That's a sob. Shit. Zhongli genuinely has no idea what to do. He feels terrible about it, but he's also confused. Why would Venti cry over him of all people? He's not worth crying over??? Once again, Venti's incredibly gentle heart is wasted on trying to move old stone.

Still, the tears do a lot to soften his sharp edges, if only for the moment. He holds Venti patiently and lets him cry, scream, rant, swear... whatever he needs to do. Zhongli may have once been a god of war, but nowadays he simply weathers the storms that time brings.

Why the Black Order? Why indeed. That's a long story. He's not sure he wants to tell it again, but Venti uses a name that Zhongli hasn't even told him—and it's enough to make him suck in a breath.

Hearing it is... bittersweet. It reminds him of times lost to history, of friends turned to enemies, and old enemies turned to friends... He thought he'd be happier upon hearing it from Venti, from Barbatos, but within the context of everything going on, it's just another burden he has to bear.

He... doesn't want to be here anymore. He's sure the wine will taste like ashes in his mouth.]


A thousand years of service was worth knowing that Azhdaha would be safe. Theirs was the only solution.

[He breathes in through his nose, and finally lets it out.]

I... couldn't bring myself to bury him a second time. [His voice feels so small.] I couldn't fail him again.
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-30 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
[Those bright green eyes filled with tears are an extremely volatile weapon. Even Zhongli, who is normally unmoved by such things, is feeling himself waver a little bit. But only a little. There is nothing he will do to jeopardize a contract, especially one written fairly. He already told Jusis as much.

Venti's tone is... surprisingly gentle, though. Funny enough that only makes what he's saying seem worse.]


... You don't have to mince your words with me. It doesn't suit you, and we've known each other for too long.

[He says this like they weren't just fighting two hours ago in front of God and everyone. This is just how they are, though. It's comforting and familiar, like his favorite coat.]

Ah.

[Venti was right; that one stings. His amber eyes shift to the side, and then he closes them.]

Venti... Azhdaha as we knew him no longer exists. Even if I were to end my contract by the terms I negotiated, we could never go back to the way things were.

[He doesn't see a point in thinking about things like that.]

In our other lives, he assumed I would end him when he began to erode. As if it were that simple... In other words, I think he wouldn't approve of keeping him alive. Is that the answer you were seeking?

[His words seem sharp on paper, but he's just... tired... of arguing about something he can't change.]

The arrangement I made suited all of us. Azhdaha kept his life, if not his memories. The Black Order gained my strength. And as for myself... well, you may call my motivations selfish if you like. Sooner or later, the Black Order would have come for us-- for Azhdaha. There's no other option when our immortal kin descend into madness and become dangerous.

If you had also...

[He stops. Maybe they shouldn't go down that road.]

... Your ignorance of the truth protected you. That's all I can say.
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-30 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
[To his credit, Zhongli doesn't look away once Venti's commanded his attention again. They muzzled you, his old friend says, and the brunet just... takes it quietly. He's listening, maybe vaguely unsettled, but he's still just weathering it all like he expected this. On some level he'd been prepared for a long time.

But then Venti goes on about the wind. There's nothing cute or cheeky about this metaphor. There's... the beginning of some realization in his odd amber eyes, eyebrows rising slightly. That emphasized word, comfortable, slides in as easily as a knife between the ribs. The tears are even worse. He raises one hand to wipe an errant tear with his glove, thumbing at Venti's cheek unconsciously.]


... That isn't right. [He's protesting the metaphor. Not the other stuff. All of that about the Black Order? He won't deny it.] The mountain in your story-- it only ever wished for the wind to return to its side. Whatever form it took, the mountain was simply grateful for its presence.

[But oh, he's listening. Because the moment Venti says the Azhdaha in this life, he's transported right back to the most halcyon of autumn days. He recalls the softness of Azhdaha's skin as he took Zhongli's hand, contradicting the firmness of his grip, and said:

I understand you fear for the boy. Let me help you, Zhongli. Consider his point of view for a moment. How can he think of life as something precious if he only ever sees your suffering? Will he not believe he is a burden?

He blinks that memory away. Venti's teary eyes fill his gaze, filled with anguish and grief in a way that Zhongli hasn't seen in this life. Not even once. But... he remembers... far enough back, there was something... wasn't there?

Does Venti think he is a burden because all he's seen is Zhongli's suffering...?

Why won't you let me help you? Venti's question echoes in his empty brain a little, framed by falling ginkgo leaves and the taste of ancient tea left in his mouth. Zhongli searches the face in front of him for something, as if he might find the answer to those demanded questions in his eyes. But he finds nothing.

He's so tired.

Without much preamble, he simply leans forward and rests his forehead against Venti's chest, the rest of him limp. After a moment his arms wrap around the bard's middle. He's said nothing out loud, but his body language says he's given up, like a half-dead animal approaching a strange human for help.]
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-30 04:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[That's a painful question that Zhongli knows the answer to, but he's not thinking about it right now. He thinks his metaphor was enough. That's how Venti likes to speak, isn't it? Riddles and rhymes and songs. Sometimes it's better to try to... speak someone's language when you want them to understand something. Either way, it's something they definitely need to discuss later.

At the moment it'd be a miracle if Zhongli is able to say anything. In the absence of some deep-seated fury, and when he's faced with an onslaught of emotion that he can't begin to process and doesn't know where to start, he simply won't try. His eyes remain dry, but that's not a surprise. Who can squeeze tears from a stone?

The darkness behind his eyelids is soon broken by Venti humming a song. It's... it has to be an old one, because Zhongli's never heard it before. Is this from Venti's childhood? He doesn't want to ask. He feels like... if he acknowledges it, if he accepts what's happening, it'll shatter the dream. After all, he's never been allowed to have any sense of paradise for very long.

The curious thing about Venti's music is that it has always had the power to move hearts, but the healing magic—that is extraordinary. Zhongli's not wounded in the traditional sense but he can feel the gentleness of the wind wrapping around him anyway, tousling his hair, tugging playfully at the lapels of his coat.

No one's asking him to do anything at this moment. There is a bigger war to be waged, battles to be strategized and fought, philosophies to be debated... but he's so tired.

At the end of the day, he's not a mountain but a lone stone standing tall in a field determined to cast some shade... and he doesn't realize there are trees behind him. What he's doing isn't necessary. But he's stood here for thousands of years, and he thinks he needs to be here a thousand more.

Then some windy imp flies by and pushes him into the mud. He's trying to decide if he wants to bother getting up after all of that.

He's forgotten how to ask for help. If it isn't in the defense of his people or his loved ones, he can't fathom such a request. Up until this point he's fought for himself as necessary, and he thought he had the strength. It's only in this moment that he begins to realize that perhaps he can't even be trusted with that.

But what is the alternative? Freedom? Freedom is a terrifying concept full of unknowns, utterly unimaginable by a man who plots his path with constants. Zhongli has always distinguished himself by his relationship with other things. Absent of that other thing, he has a hard time defining his own edges.

Eventually his grip on Venti loosens but he stays where he is. He feels very small in Venti's hold, not at all like the figure whose memories he inherited. Instead Zhongli was brought low by a mere gust of wind. How laughable...

It's only after the lullaby has faded that he finally manages to collect himself. He sits up slightly, but when he speaks, he keeps his voice low. This is only for Venti to hear.]


... In a time before history, a time before memory for most, there was a dragon who soared through the skies of his home. He danced among the clouds and played with the wind until all the troubles of the world demanded their attention, and then he descended to the ground below.

At some point between that world and this one, he lost the ability to fly. It wasn't that his wings were clipped; he simply never had them in the first place.

[He's speaking in metaphor, except for the part where he is very much a dragon who can't fucking fly. (Just a smaller one.)]

How does one dream of a freedom they've never truly known?

[He takes one of Venti's hands in both of his.]

How many times must I prevail upon you to teach me?
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-30 06:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[As many times as he needs to, huh...

Hasn't Zhongli tested his patience enough?

He looks at their joined hands. They don't do this a lot. The last time was probably Venice. It's not... unpleasant, but it's unfamiliar. He wonders how much the wind can accept the cold, unyielding grasp of stone. He wonders if he's hurting Venti simply being this close.

It's never been gentle or easy? Neither has living. Zhongli has walked a long, arduous path of his own making.

... Still, his fingers curl a little around the bard's hand.

What does he want in this moment? That's difficult. Freedom and everything like it... those are lofty concepts. So, following Venti's advice, he focuses on the now.]


I...

[THIS IS HARD GIVE HIM A MOMENT]

... I want to enjoy a glass of wine with an old friend, [he says finally.] I want to hear about the things he's learned, the places he's seen, and the songs he's sung since last we met.

There are some things that I cannot see or imagine from my position. ... Your words always added a few colors to the painting.

[Totally straight things to say to your best friend right.]
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-30 07:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[There really is no rushing a mountain. He has always gone at his own glacial pace. Which is why it's taken this long for him to even begin to admit that he can't imagine being free. He hasn't said he wants to be free, but it's between the lines. That's progress.

He looks relieved, though, when Venti agrees. He'd been expecting... more scolding, maybe. Yet Venti hasn't pulled away from him, and neither has Zhongli relinquished his hand. How is it that things always become a stalemate between these two?]


All right.

[The joke falls flat, but that's okay. Because what comes out of his mouth next isn't a retort but just something that... happens. It just tumbles out.]

—I missed you.

[uh wait fuck that's not what he meant to say. He realizes this, at least, and tries to explain.]

Of course, you always keep your promises. My concerns amounted to nothing. I realize that the burden of those worries isn't yours to bear.

[He doesn't take what he said back, though he does let Venti's hand go after that.]
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-30 10:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[Heaven and earth, Zhongli, pull yourself together... He's facepalming inwardly at himself so much. Poor Venti's confused by the sudden outburst, and like, who can blame him? Thankfully, the bard handles it with grace. He isn't sure what to say to the fact he was missed, too, so he just kind of... stares helplessly as Venti sits down.

... That's right. Venti did cry fairly hard, and Zhongli is the reason, so...]


Wait just a moment.

[He steps back into the apartment for about thirty seconds. When he returns, it's with a cool washcloth and a small bowl of ice water.]

... I've been a terrible host. You've no need to act and dance for me like you're my own personal entertainment.

[Even he can tell when Venti is trying too hard.]

I'll listen to your story, but only when you're ready.
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-31 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
[Zhongli blinks. Mixed signals? How is he giving mixed signals? It's a normal day when Venti is saying shit that doesn't make sense, though. He hands over the washcloth and sets the little bowl on the table so as not to risk dumping ice water on his friend.

... However, upon hearing that last part, Zhongli gives a surprised laugh.]


I had no idea you felt so strongly about the Eiffel Tower.

[NOW WHO'S BEING PARTICULAR?]
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-31 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
[This represents a rare moment when Zhongli is the one to learn something about his friend instead of the other way around. Somehow "Venti has Opinions about architecture" just wasn't on the bingo card. That said, he's pleased to see Venti cheering up a bit. His smile, even when mischievous as hell, tends to put Zhongli at ease more than a frown would.]

It sounds as if we won't be visiting Paris anytime soon.

[... but other places are on the table. And judging by his expression he is probably thinking of alternatives and wherever will be least offensive to Venti's architectural sensibilities.]
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[personal profile] lapislazily 2023-05-31 09:45 am (UTC)(link)
[............................. of course he's interested in the wine tasting. Some things never change. He's not wrong, though; some of the world's greatest vineyards for grape wine are in France.]

Europe is diverse, and there's more to France than simply Paris. I'm sure we can find somewhere decent to spend the time. [He's not even pretending it isn't a date at this point, but that would involve knowing on some level it's a date. Sorry Venti.]

I've been to the States before, though most of my time was spent in New York. I visited again in the late seventies. [His eyes settle on Venti. Despite the wine addict talk, his expression is mild.] If it's that notable, I'll have to make the time.

[But they've gotten off topic.]

What did you do after you awoke?
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