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kaisou2022-12-28 07:09 pm
beathollow) wrote in kaisou2022-12-28 07:09 pm
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reaching out, in a sense ❄️ closed
WHO: Mafuyu, Elliot
WHERE: The high school
WHEN: Some time before winter break
WHAT: Music!
WARNINGS: Passing references to Mafuyu's toxic parents. More to be added as required.
( it's almost time for the school to close, and yet mafuyu remains in the music room, working on something quietly. beside her is a laptop with as much of her old music that she could recover from her phone on it as possible, displaying music sheets as she tries to work something out. there's no kanade here- no mizuki or ena, either.
no miku.
she has to do this alone again. and when she gets too close to how she felt when OWN was active, ice creeps along the floor and walls around her. this isn't working out. so she just keeps on trying, ignoring the darkening sky in the window, the sound of footsteps...
sorry, elliot. she's not quite aware of you just yet. )
WHERE: The high school
WHEN: Some time before winter break
WHAT: Music!
WARNINGS: Passing references to Mafuyu's toxic parents. More to be added as required.
( it's almost time for the school to close, and yet mafuyu remains in the music room, working on something quietly. beside her is a laptop with as much of her old music that she could recover from her phone on it as possible, displaying music sheets as she tries to work something out. there's no kanade here- no mizuki or ena, either.
no miku.
she has to do this alone again. and when she gets too close to how she felt when OWN was active, ice creeps along the floor and walls around her. this isn't working out. so she just keeps on trying, ignoring the darkening sky in the window, the sound of footsteps...
sorry, elliot. she's not quite aware of you just yet. )
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It's there that he sees Mafuyu is still in, looking like she's in the middle of working hard on music. Considering Elliot can get severe tunnel vision when he's working on his ow music, enough that his boyfriend has to remind him to eat and sleep, he's not even surprised to see Mafuyu not notice his presence.
Still, as much as he'd hate to interrupt her while she's in the groove, he did need to lock up for the day. And you know, her spreading ice will possibly damage the place]
Mafuyu?
[he says it gently, so not to startle her. ]
I'M SORRY i've been dying severely
mafuyu almost jolts, like something starting up and fading just as quickly, a dull look in her eyes being replaced with that enthusiastic light as always, when she's not bewildered generally. )
Mr. Craig, I'm sorry. I didn't notice you come in.
( quietly, she folds her hands over the table, leaving everything open. it'd be rude to keep working while talking, after all. )
Did you need something?
It's all good!! Hope you're feeling better
Eheh, it's okay! I could tell you were in the zone.
[It was a creative zone he knows too well, when he's composing.]
I was just about to lock things up for the evening, though I didn't mean to interrupt you. Were you working on something?
i'm! getting there!!! i think!!!!
Sort of... I think. It's...
( she hesitates, glancing away. this isn't something she readily admits to- she isn't sure how. the others only knew because miku showed them the way, and after that there wasn't any reason to continue the facade. )
It's hard for me to tell what I'm feeling. ( she means to cushion the confession with a white lie, a 'sometimes'. like it's not constant. she does not. ) So I use music to work that out. It's part of why I was part of a music group back home. I still have some of our work, so it helps as a reference in some cases.
( not the skill- never the skill. she can't remember the last time she needed to work on a skill, actually. but the feelings invoked...? that, she does need. her arrival to kaisou hasn't matched marionette, however- nor does it match anything from own. )
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Hm...I see. Well, music is a very good vehicle to sort out one's feelings, I think. It's got a way to reach at those thoughts and feelings that just can't easily be put into words.
[Even for himself, it tends to be the easiest way he can express how he's feeling]
So you were in the middle of trying to sort something out?
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( if it can be fixed. if she can bring herself to act. she still hasn't gone to the pharmacy, despite knowing damn well it'd help. )
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[This girl has experienced a major upheaval, being brought to this world. And that's not even getting into all the supernatural stuff]
So have you figured anything out yet?
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( other than a jumble of confusion- when she'd tested the playback earlier, it was mostly overwhelming. like getting caught in a whirlpool.
maybe it's a lead, but it's not identifiable for her. )
... I don't mind if you listen. Maybe you'll find something I'm missing.
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You sure? I mean I'd be happy to listen, but if it's personal...
[He knows he has some pieces he's not ready to have others hear yet, so he's double checking]
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( and hey! it's not OWN, so it's not going to be horrifically depressing. )
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Alright, in that case...I'll be happy to give it a listen.
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it's not entirely a pleasant feeling. on a technical level, it displays her usual skill, of course, but mostly?
mostly it's just as she said she's been feeling: confused and overwhelmed and lost.
mafuyu sits to the side, the very picture of calm. )
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Eventually, he's heard enough and turns off the song]
....Well, I can only guess at the meaning, but to me...that song sounded like it was written by someone who feels lost and adrift at sea.
Which considering everything going on...that's a pretty normal feeling to have.
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I'm tired of it.