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WHO: Amal and whoever!
WHERE: The network
WHEN: The last week of May
WHAT: Amal's long nap is finally over.
WARNINGS: Endwalker spoilers in some threads, if you care about that sort of thing. Mind the CWs on Zelos' thread too (abuse, indentured servitude).

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[Amal is dressed a little differently today. Repping Thavnairian weave and a ribbon in his hair, he's seemingly conquered the incredible bedhead he's nursed for several weeks.]

Hey everyone! Did you think you were rid of me? Sorry to disappoint! Being exceptionally difficult to get rid of is one of my many talents, as it turns out.

My birds are acting like I was dead instead of asleep, when I don't even remember going to bed. But I remember a lot of other things—it was like I was home. Like I never left. Maybe... my body was here while my soul was there? I have no idea, but I'm awake now, and I have every reason to believe what I saw happen... uh, happened.

So. What'd I miss?

[A pause.]

Oh, and what's a BBL? I woke up to a bunch of texts from work asking if I'd 'recovered' yet.

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I don't think it's you so much as the universe.

[With Amal at the center of it, but it doesn't really seem to be his fault. Raha will sit next to him, tea in hand, not touching but still a comfortable closeness.]

The universe needs to stop it, then.

[He blows off the top of his tea and takes a sip, not wanting to burn his tongue. This is definitely comfortable, and he won't deny there's an urge to lean in closer, but he'll let Raha be. This is just like he remembers at home.]

I'm fine now, though. Really. I think I just need to rest another week or so. Magic might save someone if you get to them in time, but... it's like all of the energy I would have spent in bed in stitches got used up all at once. Now I'm just tired and sore, with a few new scars to impress.

Mm.

[He's getting more used to the regaining of memories now, a distant recollection of a lecture on the use of aether in the healing arts coming to mind, but aside from just taking the time to sip at his tea to let his mind settle he doesn't comment on it.]

If you need any help, I should be around for a bit. [He was planning on moving in soon, though he'll be swallowed up by his masters' defense soon enough.]

[He gets the feeling there is more that Raha wants to say, but he's not sure how to get him to talk about it. Normally Amal loves the sound of his own voice so it's not a problem, but...]

No sparring or moving furniture, most likely. So if you still want to move in after all of this, you might be on your own unless you wait.

[He watches his companion, words unsaid weighing heavy. How does he go about... everything? Where does he even start?]

Do you want me to start at the beginning? With... how we met? I know a little about your origins besides the bedtime story.

I do. Still want to move in. If it's alright?

[He doesn't really know why Amal thinks he wouldn't, given that he's already said he understands why the real connection was kept from him, but he's fine to reassure him all the same.

He smiles softly at him, giving him a little nod.] Seems like that would be a good place to start. ~~[now i have do-re-mi stuck in my head forever, did i mention that my theater's musical next year is sound of music and the kids would not stop singing it????]~~

Edited 2022-08-01 22:41 (UTC)

O-of course it's all right! I'd be really happy if you did. [He rubs at the back of his head and glances away again.] The closer you are, the less I have to worry...

[Well. That's true enough.

He catches the small smile and it makes him flush. He hides it behind his tea so he can get himself under control, then sets it down on the coffee table.]

We... that is, the you I remember... we first met in Mor Dhona, which is a rugged little slice of weird country sandwiched between Coerthas in the north and Thanalan in the south. Coerthas is ridiculously cold, and Thanalan is a desert, and if that makes your head spin it's totally understandable. It wasn't always that bad, but Mor Dhona is rough. There have been multiple disasters there and each one left its mark on the world. There are crystals of every color jutting out of cliffs, lightning sprites roaming freely, ancient buildings overgrown with crystal, and a dragon's old corpse sitting in the middle of a lake.

So, not the most hospitable country...

But! Thousands of years ago, it used to be a thriving hub of civilization. And this was why your group of scholars, the Students of Baldesion, came to Mor Dhona. I came to help the Students with their exploration of the Allagan ruins they were excavating because that's what good and helpful adventurers do, or something. Cid was also helping on the project, and he was a friend of mine, so that was another reason.

[He pauses, and then he has to fight back a grin.]

Rammbroes called me over, and he said something to the effect of... 'One of my colleagues hasn't come back, again, and there's a 50-50 chance he's dead. Can you finish what he started?' So I had my orders. And while I was running from place to place looking for various kinds of aethersand, someone followed me and provided running commentary.

Obnoxious as this person was, I got what I could and brought it back to the campsite. Lo and behold, who do I see standing on the highest point of the scaffolding, wind dramatically flowing through his braided hair, but the intrepid G'raha Tia... You jumped down and swooped in like a hero from a legend, and you took charge of the expedition in your own way.

Now, this is the funny part...

[He takes another sip of his tea.]

I was barely over twenty, and you were a few years older and smarter and cuter, so I was kind of jealous.

[Raha coughs into his tea, face very flushed by that little story and looking more than a little embarrassed.]

Ah... that does sound like something I would have done when I was a bit younger...

[he was a smart-assed menace in high school and early college. Graduate school has mellowed him out considerably.]

I'm going to object to the 'smarter and cuter' bit, though. [In a match of 'years of education,' yes, he can absolutely believe that. But being 'smart' is much more than that, and he's really seen nothing from Amal to indicate that he's not intelligent in his own right. And he's definitely not cuter.]

[Amal chuckles softly at Raha's poor embarrassment. He does enjoy teasing him a little, but this is all very true!]

I know how hard it is for Sharlayan scholars to get their tattoos, and you certainly worked hard for yours. Me? Well... I never had the patience for that sort of thing. I got my so-called degree in knowing how to navigate the underbelly of any city.

And, you are very cute, and I won't hear any arguments, unless that argument is that you'd prefer handsome instead.

[He drains his cup and sets it back down.]

It's funny, really—you wanted someone to compete with and I was the perfect target. Then I got over myself and realized just how much I could learn from you. From being like you. You didn't take no for an answer, and you seemed to know who you were and exactly what you were born to do... right up until you left us. You never had a doubt in your mind. When destiny rose up before you, you didn't hesitate to accept it.

[This is Amal's blind spot right here-- thinking G'raha has always known who he was, even though evidence points to the opposite! But it's that strong sense of purpose that Amal envied.]

But... me? I was a ship adrift. I didn't fit anywhere. If there was a purpose for me, I couldn't find one. Everyone else seemed to think I was there to be their savior, so that's what I did... I hoped that if I kept working hard, eventually something would fall into place and I'd feel like the hero they wanted.

Edited 2022-08-02 00:13 (UTC)

[As Amal tells the story, there are parts of it Raha can picture perfectly- likely more memories, even if they manifest as a vivid mental picture. He tilts his head at the part about knowing who he was the whole time, in part because he certainly wouldn't say that's true of himself now and part because something about it doesn't feel right, with what he's remembering, even though that specific evidence is currently absent.

He has more questions about his- about the other him's- part in this story, but there's something else he wants to ask first.]

Did you?

[He rubs at the bottom of his nose. There's a sparkle in his eyes now that G'raha's asked that question.]

What I needed wasn't a purpose, but a home. Once I found that, everything else fell into place naturally.

Home doesn't have to be a... location. For me, it was people. My people are the Scions—my family, really.

[He reaches out to gently poke G'raha's shoulder.]

They're your people, too.

[Raha smiles a little, something in him relaxing a bit as he nods.]

I'm glad you found them.

[Though he is a bit confused, right back to the questions as he tilts his head at the other man.] Though you said I left?

[Boy was that a journey six or seven years in the making.]

You did. [A shadow crosses his expression.]

Remember how I talked about your eyes, and the heavy heritage that came with them...?

When we met, you only had the one red eye. But it was giving you so much pain, and you started to remember things... Some people we met inside the Crystal Tower lent you their own, and then everything came back to you: the princess' wishes and those of her people, and what the tower should have been.

And you realized...

You realized that the Crystal Tower was dangerous if it fell into the wrong hands. We didn't have a way to prevent the Garlean Empire from coming over and taking it, and you were the only person who could control it. So you locked yourself away, and promised that when we could break in using our own technology, that you'd be there waiting for us. You and everything else in the tower would sleep, and wait.

[His face falls.]

And you never saw me again.

... That would have been the end of that story, but you didn't like the ending as it was written. I think no one would blame you.

[Raha's quiet for a moment, thinking with his near empty teacup in hand. This does fit in with what Amal had told him before, and... yes, he can see the logic in the decision. He doesn't know much of the Garlean Empire, aside from them being a self-declared empire, but he can extrapolate what they might do to get the knowledge they want. Locking it away was likely the only way to keep it safe.

But...]

I doubt I would have enjoyed making the decision.

[He can almost feel it, the ache in his heart as the overlarge crystal doors closed, sealing him and the rest of the tower away. He shakes his head a little, looking up to meet Amal's gaze.]

Perhaps I did do it without flinching, but... I would not say I was certain of it. Of that being all I was meant to be. It had to be done, there was no other way. But I think even then, I knew it wasn't the end of my story.

[He feels oddly sure of that, and of what he says next.] Is this where your previous world travelling comes in?

[Amal is quiet for once. Raha seems to be figuring some things out and he doesn't want to get in the way of that. His eyebrows rise as Raha seems very, very sure that he did what he did not without a doubt in his heart but with the hope of there being more to it all.

... Well. He learned something new today, then.]

It takes a very special kind of person to do what you did, and not give up hope all the while. I hope you know that.

[He nods.]

Aye, that it does. And it was all your fault, I might add.

[His tone is light, because the next part is... difficult. He's sure as he talks about it that Raha might remember more, and he might remember how bad things really were. Amal never knew firsthand.]

I only know bits and pieces of your life after you awoke, but the situation was dire. There had been another Calamity—and there were no more sides to the war, only scavengers and isolated groups of people trying to survive in a nearly lifeless world. But you refused to give up. You met Cid's people, and then you found even more who had strived for a better tomorrow. Going back in time wasn't enough to stop this from happening—you'd have to tackle the situation on another world yourself.

So many things could've gone wrong, but you never much cared for the word 'impossible'.

It was on the First that you came into your own power, I think. You had given yourself to the Crystal Tower, and that was what made you [he coughs] some kind of... space wizard. You thought to summon me because I could help, but you kept accidentally kidnapping my friends' souls instead, so you can imagine I was somewhat cross when I finally woke up on the First.

[He scratches at his cheek.]

You were in disguise when I saw you, but... you were so eager to meet me, I felt bad for even thinking about boxing your ears.

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[It doesn't trigger as fully as the previous memories had, because Amal knows less and can explain less, but his thoughts go back to the ruined realm and the first place he found that felt a bit too familiar, a stone building crumbling bit by bit. And with it, he now remembers a bit more, the town around it in a similar state of ruin but built up into a base against the broken world, of people trying to put it back together.

He does remember the surprise of somehow summoning a naked Thancred into the Tower, though. He's going to try very hard not to think about that.]

Frankly I'm sure I would have deserved it all the same. [He had continued to think so for... quite a while, after all.]

[Amal is very grateful he was summoned with clothes on. For what value of "clothes" he usually wears, that is.]

I don't think so. [He smiles gently.] You had your reasons and they were good ones. It just didn't come out until later.

[He can tell this weighs on Raha somewhat even if he doesn't have the full scale of the memories associated with it. He considers, and then he covers one of G'raha's hands with his own.]

You went through hells and back. I can't fault you when I would've done the same.

[He looks down for a moment.]

When all of that... happened... I wasn't angry with you. I was—I was so happy in that moment, and so furious at myself. I finally had my friend back but he was going to die and I was powerless to stop it. I think the rest of our friends felt the same.

[Raha has enough of the gist to know he felt deeply responsible for the trouble and worry he caused. But... he can also imagine just how delighted he would have been to see Amal again.

He glances up at the other when their hands touch, surprised but relaxing again quickly, the motion oddly comforting.]

Still, I lied to you.

[Ignoring the fact that he'd literally just forgiven Amal for a very similar lie. There are still big chunks of the story missing, large holes he doesn't quite grasp yet, but... his plan. That he remembers.]

And put you in no small amount of danger as well, it seems. [He doesn't remember the plan going wrong, but if he didn't die, it clearly did somehow.]

Raha...

[He's fighting a smile and failing miserably.]

Maybe you lied to me, but I'm fairly sure I wasn't truthful with you about everything back then... And if you had told the Scions your plan, especially Thancred or Y'shtola, they would've done everything they could to stop you from succeeding. It was an impossible situation—everyone knows that.

[A little thumb rub, personal and familiar.]

Danger is part of the job. I knew everything would turn out.

[Don't you smile at him when he kind of betrayed your trust for the good of the world(s)!!! He looks like he's about to speak up again, but the thumb thumb quiets him, still very human ears a bit pink.]

...And how did it turn out?

Like all the best stories.

[He's almost beaming.]

Light clashed against Darkness, and something was lost but we gained so much more. And at the end of the world, we were both alive—worn and bloodied, but there to greet the dawn. Together.

So, you see... no matter what happens, no matter the circumstances or the reasons, nothing can keep us apart.

One way or another, we will always find our way back to each other. This I believe with my whole heart.

[That really doesn't tell him anything, not in specifics anyway, but... he doesn't really need it, does he? The how isn't that important, just that they did, that even if it all went wrong it still turned out ok, it was still worth it, they still survived.

Together.

He chuckles as he turns towards Amal, a soft smile on his face.]

You make it sound so poetic. [it's not a complaint.]

And yet it is an apt description of the scene. Emet-Selch always had a flair for the dramatic, theatre-loving bastard that he was. He fought with his all and so did we.

[That soft smile is everything to him right now.]

Some time before all of that, when you still thought yourself a dead man, you confided in me that you wanted to go on an adventure. I am happy to say we've had many adventures since, with this one being the most unexpected of them all.

[His amber eyes soften, then dart to the side as he feels his face heat up.]

... If you'll excuse me for a moment, there's something I want to give you.

[Raha does not really have any memories of Emet-Selch, doesn't yet know anything about what happened beyond Amal's arrival, and yet somehow he feels as if they name annoys him all the same.

But he doesn't remember talk of adventure- not from those memories of that far away world, but of this one, fondly talking about how that sounded nice, that he'd like to go on an adventure with Amal if possible... Seems some things change very little.

He's a little surprised as Amal looks away so suddenly, head tilted in curiosity.]

Of course. [He'll even give him a little hand squeeze, before they're certain to have to let go.]

[It's sad that Raha doesn't remember all the promises, or the sparkly-eyed stare he wore when they first stepped into Ishgard in his new old body—but Amal is certain that he will, eventually.

He squeezes that hand back, though, and his fingertips linger just a little too long on the back of Raha's hand before he pulls away.]

I won't keep you waiting too long, I promise.

[He disappears down the hallway into his room. He definitely needs a moment—he is blushing madly. He rubs at his scarlet cheeks as if that might dispel it, takes a deep breath, and then starts going through the box on his vanity. He finds what he's looking for and tucks it safely into his hand, then heads back out to the living room.]

Here... I felt like something was missing.

[He sits down, and opens his palm so that Raha can see the silky sky-blue ribbon wrapped loosely about his fingertips.]

You got the hairclips right. I suppose your tastes haven't changed too much.

[During his absence, Raha takes a deep, calming breath himself, the now near empty and definitely cold mug shifting fitfully between his hands. He's not sure why he feels so flustered- it is just the oddity of the situation, of knowing and not knowing all at once, of only newly meeting someone and yet having known them for years, across time and space? It's not as though he's got much else to compare that specific set of circumstances to... conversations with Rhel haven't yet gotten quite this intense feeling.

He fidgets a little on the couch, waiting and perking up when Amal re-enters, looking down as the little gift is presented.] Oh...

[He reaches out to thread the ribbon between his own fingers, looking over it for a moment before raising his gaze to Amal's again, that same, soft smile almost radiating joy.] Thank you. I suppose... some things really don't change, do they?

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oh no once you get the sound of music started it's ALL OVER

the children would not be stopped

do re mi to the grave

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