kaisou | October Event Log (Purgatory. Closed to the Dead)

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October Event Log (Purgatory. Closed to the Dead)

Closed Log: Purgatory

Congrats on your untimely death! After you die, you will awaken in a very drab waiting room. The only other people in the waiting area seems to be the others who also died back on the Event Horizon. On the wall, there is a sign that reads: Welcome to Purgatory! Please take a number and wait while your soul is processed for its next destination. Thank you. Sure enough, under the sign there is one of those old number ticket machines.

From there, there is nothing to do but... wait! There are plenty of old chairs to sit in (some are even comfortable), along with stacks of magazines that are all discontinued. If you get hungry, there is a cabinet and fridge that is full of various discontinued snacks and drinks. Fancy yourself a New Coke or Pepsi Blue?

Finally, there is an old fashioned tv and antennae. You can use this either to watch some cancelled shows or watch a feed of what's going on back on the Event Horizon. You'll have to deal with adjusting the antenna regularly and bad reception though.

That's about it for purgatory though! Enjoy your stay.

[OOC: This is the log for all the characters that die during the October Horror plot! ]

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[The first time Husk arrives in purgatory, he looks at the sign, then at the ticket machine. He gives the ticket machine the finger.]

Naw. Fuck this. I know where I'm going, I've already been through this shit I don't-

[And just like that, he vanishes.

A while later- maybe it's only a few hours, maybe it's a day, who knows, time is weird here, he shows up again. This time, he's just gonna reach out and take whatever snack you've got held in your hands, taking a bite out of it.]

...This is gonna get real fuckin' annoying, real fuckin' fast.

[He manages a few bits of the snack and off he goes again. And so begins Husker Agapov's Continued Trips to Purgatory. He shows up a lot- sometimes he's there for a few moments, sometimes a couple hours- depending on how "dead" someone made him. Each time he has something to bitch about. It's clear he finds this continued dying game a major annoyance in his existence. The Event Horizon is a place where he's off his rocker, at least the waiting room gives him his sanity back. He'd rather stay here, thanks.

Eventually, though, he comes back and STAYS. He slumps in a chair with a sigh.]

Thank fuck. Hey, you think I can get air miles in this place? Nothin' fancy. Maybe enough to get a toaster oven or something.

[Wei Wuxian has died before. Painfully. Gruesomely. Been torn apart and had his name dragged through the muck he lived in as a child. Had his research used for acts on par with what he committed in his first past life.

So why did this time hurt the worst?

They couldn't have given him the liberty of silencing his consciousness this time, even.

Anyone else who comes in won't even find him sitting on any furniture. Just laying on the floor if not in a corner trying to make heads or tails of... fucking anything.

Wei Wuxian remembered dying. Wei Wuxian remembered being told what he did while Lan Zhan risked it all for him. But right now he's too broken by the image of his shijie's dying expression turned Miss Robin's to not fall back into his worst moments.]

[No one wants to die, Robin included.]

[But she had.]

[It would be easy, after all of this, to blame Wei Wuxian. He is, after all, the one who killed her.]

[Except he isn't, not really. Robin may not have known him for more than 48 hours, but she knows that he has a good heart. The ship did something to the people on board. From watching the TV, that much is apparent.]

[Sometimes the best way to help cure your own hurt is to help alleviate the pain of others, and that's what Robin intends to do. She'll take a seat next to Wei Wuxian. She doesn't bother saying anything yet, she's content to sit next to him and smile.]

[Blaming him would be easiest given the proverbial and literal wounds are still fresh. The Cultivation world blamed him for 13 years, but after a while that became useless. Not here.

So it's baffling for Robin to sit next to him in his absolutely awful state on a filthy, dirty floor.

Wei Wuxian didn't say anything, his mouth opened as if he wanted to, some fractured Mandarin came out half way but he didn't complete that sentence. Just started moving to not have Robin need to sit next to him.]

[Robin looks at him as he moves, and she gives him the softest smile that she can.]

[It's forced, in the way that all of Robin's emotions are forced. Living in the spotlight means that you learn to curate your reactions to those around you, and Robin is currently doing her best to convey her lack of anger and lack of fear.]

I won't force you, but I did want to speak to you.

[She reaches out and tries to place her hands over his:]

I can't imagine what you're feeling, but I want you to know: You aren't to blame for this.

[To his credit, he stopped when Robin took his hands. But he also tensed. Like he was moments away from retracting his hand like he wanted to keep her from getting dirty from touching him.

He didn't dare to look at her directly because he just knew she was smiling. Her tone said it, her confidence in taking his hand said it. It was awful how much she brought back his memory of Jiang Yanli. That determination coupled with an endlessly gentle soul. Someone who meant the world in his first life, who even shined through in his second.

But in this one she wasn't here. Just someone he killed without a thought. But that loose association and memory was at least there to keep him from telling her to go away.]

How is it so easy for you to talk with someone who didn't even give you a chance to run? It just happened. It only just now happened.

[Robin doesn't let her smile falter.]

I won't lie and say that it didn't hurt. And I won't lie and say that I wasn't scared then.

[She shakes her head. She doesn't know Wei well, but she knows enough.]

You aren't the one who didn't give me a chance to run. The ship was.

[There's no doubt in her mind.]

And I know that, as much as I'm suffering, you're suffering even more.

[She knows enough about his capabilities to hate him. This was the time she should be spending being angry with him. Before they forget and just move on to be born again. Probably for Wuxian to fuck up again and again.]

You don't need to make excuses for me.

[Anything he could say won't really matter, he paid the ultimate price for what he did already but it was the worst time to remember everything about the fall of Lotus Pier.

Whether it mattered or not, if this was the place Robin ought to be angry with him then it's also the place where he had to say one of the things every adult needed to whether they wanted or not. "Thank you", and:]

I'm sorry.

I'm not making excuses for you. I saw the illusions, too.

[Technically, she's not lying. She saw an illusion, but it wasn't too hard to surmise that something had happened to her appearance, as well.]

I forgive you.

[Saying he wasn't to blame wouldn't help, even if that's what she felt. She'd be happy to absolve him, though, as much as she could.]

Now, let's start fresh.

...

[He remembers now, vaguely. That she mentioned something being wrong. He was just too caught up in Wen Chao and Wang Lingjiao to really listen to her. History truly did rhyme when it didn't repeat.

Honestly it wasn't that he didn't believe Robin when she said she forgave him. He just thought she should want to be around someone much better than him.]

I really can't understand how you can do that so easily. [She really is just better than him. She didn't need to bring about an idol persona in a place where they were set to move onto the afterlife. This is where she could be most ugly, as much as she wanted towards Wei Wuxian who deserved it.

But he shook his head. He had the feeling she would just keep sitting next to him, so he sat down again as well.]

Are you sure that's what you want? [To start fresh, he meant, and not just pretend he doesn't exist.]

[And that’s what Wei Wuxian misunderstands.]

[It is her idol persona, but it isn’t a mask she puts on to hide from others. Her idol persona is a mask she puts on to help others. And what better use is there of that than now?]

It’s not that it’s easy, it’s that it’s the right thing to do.

[She smiles at him again.]

Yes. I’d like to be friends, Wei Wuxian.

[To that he'd ask: why help the dead?

But then he'd be a hypocrite. Not like he hasn't been one before. God knows he wanted to help the living as much as the dead in any of his lives. Even when he controlled the dead, he treated them with more respect than they ever received while alive.

If only he'd see that part of himself, then he'd think something other than Robin shouldn't be around a person like Wei Wuxian.

When faced with a smile like that, though... what else was he supposed to do.]

If that's really what Miss Robin wants... [Who is he to say anything against her word? He tried, really tried to smile. There's something there, a softness in his eyes, a struggling upturn of the ends of his lips, it was just hard to go the full way.]

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October Event Log (Purgatory. Closed to the Dead)

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day 2 onward

IT'S JADE WITH THE IRON CHAIR

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she ain't beating the jiang yanli accusations sorry 2 say

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