[Will's right on the money on this one. Varian's past is a whole goddamn mess, and it's made a pretty sizeable mark on how he seems himself. None of it is good. He knows what Will is saying is logical, he knows if this were anyone else, he'd agree with it completely. It's not the first time such feelings have been put in front of him.
And yet he can't quite make that step to properly accept them.]
Sometimes a person can try to make amends as much as they can and they STILL mess up and go right back to square one. I don't know. Sometimes it feels like being genuine about it can only go so far if whatever you do just ends up the same no matter what you do.
[Varian's feeling that especially, right now- after the mess with the peach. Sometimes he worries he's just always going to screw up and what that means about him as a person. What do you do when you try your best and keep stumbling?
Amal has been very vocal about helping him with that, but he still feels like he should be doing more. Doing better. He hates that he still keeps making things worse for people instead of better.]
Anytime, Will. It's sometimes important to remember that.
[Naturally the feelings about himself don't echo how he thinks his FRIENDS should feel though. He's got some terrible double standards. ]
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And yet he can't quite make that step to properly accept them.]
Sometimes a person can try to make amends as much as they can and they STILL mess up and go right back to square one. I don't know. Sometimes it feels like being genuine about it can only go so far if whatever you do just ends up the same no matter what you do.
[Varian's feeling that especially, right now- after the mess with the peach. Sometimes he worries he's just always going to screw up and what that means about him as a person. What do you do when you try your best and keep stumbling?
Amal has been very vocal about helping him with that, but he still feels like he should be doing more. Doing better. He hates that he still keeps making things worse for people instead of better.]
Anytime, Will. It's sometimes important to remember that.
[Naturally the feelings about himself don't echo how he thinks his FRIENDS should feel though. He's got some terrible double standards. ]