[Luz has just had more time fishing, maybe. She even knew how to do it in waters that weren't quite so deep like here. But as much as she tried to fully concentrate on only that, she had to think about people here who were gone, that she missed.

And there were plenty that had happened before coming here she'd miss pretty badly too. Maybe that was what made her such an expert on it.

Who even wanted to be an expert in losing people]?

If you want to do it for the party, just to make Luca happy? I get it. But do yourself a favor and tell him later. Believe me: he'll want to know.

And I'm with you. I get tired of losing people myself. It kinda stinks that I dealt with that a lot.

Part of getting better after though? Is admitting that you're not fine, that it's an awful feeling.

Because the person you're missing? Wouldn't want you acting like it's fine when you know it's not.