[He's snapping that, his shoulders shaking slightly.]
I mean, he would - will. [Since it's still hard for him to believe that Belos won't find out about all of this, somehow.] But him caring that I died won't change the fact that I did. That I failed.
[His arms shift a little, so he's more hugging himself than anything else, though his fingers are still fidgety despite that.] It's harder for me than it is for other witches, since I don't have magic. I've always had to work harder than everyone else, and when I fail, it only proves that I'm half-a-witch. I have to work even harder to show that I'm not.
[He glances back over at her sharply.] He's the Emperor, Luz! It hurts him when he has to deal with me being so weak! We're family, the only family either of us have left, and I care about him! I don't want to hurt him!
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[He's snapping that, his shoulders shaking slightly.]
I mean, he would - will. [Since it's still hard for him to believe that Belos won't find out about all of this, somehow.] But him caring that I died won't change the fact that I did. That I failed.
[His arms shift a little, so he's more hugging himself than anything else, though his fingers are still fidgety despite that.] It's harder for me than it is for other witches, since I don't have magic. I've always had to work harder than everyone else, and when I fail, it only proves that I'm half-a-witch. I have to work even harder to show that I'm not.
[He glances back over at her sharply.] He's the Emperor, Luz! It hurts him when he has to deal with me being so weak! We're family, the only family either of us have left, and I care about him! I don't want to hurt him!