[ he understands selfishness. pretty well. given how his family was before he'd faked his death, selfishness was something he understood better than most anything else--that desire to have something, while not fully thinking about the concequences of taking that thing you desired so blindly.

Part of him can't even blame Edward's wish. There was a small part of him that wanted to steal some of the books in here, as well. The lives of his family, back in his hometown, half the world away... but he had to steel his hand. Because of what he knew.
What Edward wouldn't know.

...He knows he isn't supposed to divulge a lot of details about the Black Order to others outside the group. He knows that. However, this was something that ... he has a feeling, even now, that other members might see as a godsend--an escape from said order. it wasn't something they would likely share with the higher-ups, or if they did, they'd hide details.

Rukkhadevata had escaped the order, and not a single member of the Kaisou branch... felt the need to force her back in. Why would they? To delete yourself from the world was such a painful weight, and yet... ]

I told you, when I met. That I worked for the Black Order. I did not lie to you about this, but I did leave out some details.
And that is that, most of the members of it were ... pulled into the organization on bad faith contracts. An agreement that was one-sided, against our favor. So most of us work for the Order out of necessity. But many of us quietly resent them for cornering us in our moments of weakness.

Speaking more on that may be considered treason, so I will leave it there.
What I will instead say, is that I have reason to believe that while normally, there is no leaving the Order without risking your life or your memories fully intact...

...A loophole has been found. And it involves doing exactly what you are doing right now.
After all, there's no need to return to the order when the entire world forgets you, is there.